It has been raining for a week in Tidewater. I have just about had it, I assure you. I love the rain sometimes. Like when I don't have to get out of bed and it makes it a little bit darker in the room behind my blinds and the warmth of my comforter that much more satisfying. Or when it is rainy and cold, but not uncomfortable and it reminds me of a trip to Paris I took years ago, where it rained all week, but I could not of cared less, because I was in freakin' Paris and the buildings were beautiful even under the heavy weather. But today, I have had it. I need the warmth of the sun. I need to feel it on my skin and see it glisten off of the streets making illusion ponds. The sun makes me smile. I feel like my body is using my food better or something. I love solar panels, but today I say a prayer for those folks who are off the grid and have no real way of making their homes snuggly in this sunless stint.
As a result of the sunlessness (I will blame it on that) I am lacking motivation for anything. I am work right now, waiting to go on a lunch break. I need motivation. All I really want to do is look at vegan blogs and plan my wedding (which will be decidedly un-vegan, sadly, my mission to go vegan is stifled slightly by those around me, although my darling fiance is eating a lot less meat these days). I am very thankful for today, though, don't get me wrong. I feel remarkably blessed lately and a little satisfied even that I am at my middle again. But I am antsy, I do need to feel that I am continuously growing and striving toward some goal. Of course I just need to know what that new goal is. The clouds are not helping with guidance on that one. . . at all.
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